I had a very long heart to heart with my mam the other day.
I've come to realise that nothing is ever going to change unless i start making steps.
I can't do it though.
God, it's so difficult.
I'm scared.
I'm scared that this is never going to go away, that i'll be like this for the rest of my life.
I am so worried.
My hair is falling out.
I've loosing alot of weight.
I'm stressed, but i shouldn't even know what that feels like at my age.
I can't do it.
I just can't.

"You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make him drink it."