It was Keiran !
I knew it.
That makes me feel completely awful.
I want to die now.
Oh.

We spoke until early hours, through text message of course.
He makes me want to die.
He told me he broke up with Carly and that they are not speaking any more, Yeah Right!
He also doesn't want me to throw my life away and become a bum living in a council house.
A)How they hell does he even know if I'm going to throw my life away.
B)Why does he even care!
C)There is nothing wrong in living in a council house.

I was feeling quite good until he texted me.
Now i feel worse than ever.
I think life hates me.

We spoke about Martyn.
He thought Martyn was my Boyfriend.
Carly has seen us in the Mile together and told Keiran, she just assumed that we were dating.
Obv, not.
People just shouldn't assume

I cryed all last night.
And this morning.
I don't cry though.
I think crying is a sign of weakness.
I have this thing where i'm really psychotic.
It's okay though, i don't mind.

Je ne peux pas dormir la nuit, j'ai des terreurs horribles de nuit.
Ils ne me laisseront pas seul.
Parler à Keiran les a rendus plus mauvais.
Tout que je veux faire est de pleurer.
Je me sens ainsi dérange en ce moment.
Je pense que la vie me déteste.

xoxo